“Disappointment and rejection are deeply intertwined for you. They need to be disconnected.” He explains. “It will require some correction.” There is no anger in His voice, but rather a tenderness that belies the difficulty of His corrections.
“What ever it takes, Papa, please, I am ready for whatever it takes.” I whisper swallowing hard against the anticipation.
He nods, thoughtfully. Quietly, he shows me a picture of a little girl, disappointed by the lack of attention from parents exhausted by a new baby. Already feeling threatened, rejected, this feeds her sense of being unwanted and alone.
“First you must forgive them.” He instructs.
I obey, releasing them from all that I have perceived.
“Look again, there is more.” He encourages me.